published in Anchor Summer Books Companion (Anchor Books)
ISBN 1 85930 347 1 / ISBN 1 85930 342 0
april 1996
I’m still here
 
 
lost
in a dark room
people laugh
on the other side of a wall
and I press my face
toward them
gasping in my haste
to be close
to someone
 
after all these years
my senses seem
desensitized
 
I flood my head
for feelings
and end up
feeling numb
and I think
I cannot help it
if my hands shake
like trees (no - branches)
in a storm
 
twitching
pulling nervously
these are not fingers
only bones
 
my heart will break
too soon
I think
if I think
too much
of home