published as CODA in A Mother's Role (Arrival Press)
ISBN 1 85786 497 2 / 1 85786 403 4
july 1996 repeat to fade


damn it all
I bled for you
and this is what I get

the chance to feed
and watch you grow
(aren’t you old enough yet?)

I’m trapped inside
the things I’ve made
with nothing new to do

I should have thought
to bring something
(I didn’t know - did you?)


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